- Saturday, January 14, 2012 -
what hurts the most.
But to say as if I have done nothing but treated you poorly and badly, as if I have just been using for my amusement in my spare time, as if I never cared for you, as if I never loved you, that was just too much. To say those words where the only reason I went to you was because nobody else loved me, nobody else cared to give me the attention I wanted, nobody wanted me, do you know how much that hurt me?
I am here, continents away from my loving family and friends, of course I am lonely. I am lonely to my core! I don't get to celebrate my family's birthdays. I don't get to see my dad when he comes out. I'm not even sure if I'll be able to go home this summer. So to answer your question, I am lonely. And out of all people, I chose to talk to you. But you took that as if it meant nothing.
How dare you? Judging me without knowing how I truly feel. As if you've only known me for a few days, as if we just met. Out of all people, you should've known better. But no, your ego and anger and hatred for me got the best of you. And because of your actions and words, you just brought out the worst of me. Because of you, I don't think I can ever love again. So your wishes may come true. I'll never have a boyfriend. I'll never end up with a husband. That's what you want, that's what you'll get.
@ 2:02 AM by Wane Y.
